life is beautiful.... because He is a good planner.. !!

salam.. hey... inspiring news! 

i was waiting for the mood to come as i was upset of something, so i tried something that i havent done.. yet.. which is....... jengjengjeng!!

trying to search my siblings name on google... yeah.. i know...crazy thing.... 

u're going to say "weh.. noob r kau!"

"kau dah knp..? x de keje lain nk buat?"
and so on..

so on..

so on..

continue~

..so i thought why dont we start with the eldest one, which is my eldest sister.. ermm... OLDest sister..?? hehe.. sorry kak nor~

and i found a list of website with her name bolded~ and one of them attracted me.. which is this..

http://segi.cms.my/success_story/norshafiza-shamsuddin

nahh... not my sister... i dont think so, since she havent utter a word about her success... but somehow, i pushed my finger to click on it.. 

and all are words........without picture..well, u know.. u cant just believe that those words are from your sister, when there is not enough proof to prove it.. kannnn?? but really....those words... definiltely like her~

at this point, i still remember how she juggled her work, her study, her family, her sibling.... n what more important is her... MEEEEEEEEEE!! :P 

so i try to 'glebek2' on this SEGi college website... click on 'home'... click on 'success stories'.. so here it is... proving myself that her is NOT her~

http://segi.cms.my/success_stories

and.... i saw it... the picture of her... MY SISTER!! on the 5th list... !!

and the only word that comes out from my mouth is 
"ya Allah!! kakak aku!!!"
and yes...  with a facepalm.. nahh.. DOUBLE facepalm to be true.. 

dear kak nor, who i definitely love.....yupp.. its you! OMG!! how can u NOT tell me..??? top 5..?? seriously?? in master..?? of BUSINESS management?? i wonder how.... hmmm... 

i truly respect u... and somehow, it inspired me to do my best.. no matter if its hard..

i promise u... if i cant stand on my feet, then i will sit, if i cant sit, then i will lie... BUT i'm gonna keep my head held high! 

when i ask everyone else to say a name who can make me inspired, they will say look at him... look at her..look at senior tu, tgk junior ni... look at those successful people who i dont even know.... feeling sad and frustrated... that i dont even saw u at first... its not my fault! its you, who didnt bragged about it! >.<

but sis.... i dont know how to say this.... but you are..... in my toplist...!!

i was whatsapp-ing with my other sister, saying that i dont think i can do it... it is too hard for me.. i will always susah2kan diorang.. that i think im not a good daughter... i felt sorry for my family for having me as part of them.. 

and she told me.. "kakak... kakak taw kan cerita tentang how God hide the sun which we want the most and He turunkan hujan.. sebab Dia nak bg kite pelangi..? kakak, everything happen for a reason.. ada hikmahnya.. cuma once kite x redha, then we could never see how beautifully he planned our life... u can do it... org lain pon susah jugak.. tapi diorg boleh..of course u can do it too.. kalau betul rasa dah susahkan semua orang, then tanam dalam diri yang one day, i'll pay them back.. not in terms of money, but with your success in ur career..thats the best way 2 pay it.." *tears dropped*

there might be other hikmah on why He gives this hardship to me.. but i saw one of it...
actually a LOT~

i might still be futur (lemah/putus asa) ... 
i might dont even know that i have superheroins in my life.. :D
i might still playing around.. 
i might still dont know who's the 'normal people that can inspire me'... 
i might dont even notice that when i am in trouble, i have someone called 'family' to story mory with.. 
i might dont even notice how they love me so much that they even pay for my yuran.. n so on.. n so on... *tears dropped*

still terngiang kata2 abah "kakak, ujian yang Allah turunkan tu, tandanya Allah rindu.. but still betapa penyayangnya Dia, Dia bgtaw dlm Quran bahawasanya Dia menurunkan ujian kepada hambaNya yang mampu menanggung ujian tersebut. betapa terpilihnya kakak untuk diuji oleh Allah yang maha mengetahui.. return to Allah... Allah knows what the best for you..." *tears dropped again*

ya Allah... betapa indahnya perjalanan hidupku yang berjalan di atas perancanganMu..betapa teraturnya hidupku yang bergerak di atas kasih sayangMu.. namun aku yang mudah futur, yang mudah menistiskan airmata ini tidak mampu untuk mendongak melihat pelangi y Kau kirimkan... sedang pelangi itu sentiasa ada...  

ya Allah... betapa tidak bersyukurnya hambaMu ini, sedang aku tahu setiap detik hidupku di isi dengan setiap kiriman cinta dariMu..ya Allah.. terlalu banyak yang aku pinta dariMu sedang aku ini dinodai dengan dosa2 yang tak sudah2..

namun ya Allah... perkenankanlah... perkenankanlah... 

ya Allah.... Kau peliharalah keluargaku ya Allah... berikan mereka kejayaan di dunia mahupun di akhirat.... berikan mereka permulaan hari yang baik dan pengakhiran hidup yang baik... ya Allah ya Tuhanku.. letakkan keluargaku di kalangan mereka yang beriman.. penuhkan hati mereka dengan iman dan taqwa... hanya kepadaMu aku meminta...

aminn... yarobbal alamin... 


p/s : fact - your family is the most perfect family for you..there will be NO other family that can replaced them... Allah put you among them, put u to be part of them.. coz He knows what the best for you.... and i was blessed by this~ :')